the thing is before instantcoffee, i had a roaring relationship with another blog called ‘can a bee see’. it was where i could be anonymously angsty. and honestly, i thought the blog title was so clever! much cleverer than instantcoffee anyway.
then came instantcoffee – designed to be an outreach program to help information-deprived parents. it turned me into a very ‘happy and gay’ version of myself, who never pms-ed and who had an idyllic existence.
but i did miss cannabis (oh, you didn’t realize it was that too? clever clever me), because cannabis had indulged my narcissism. it had been of me, by me, for me. i missed the comfort of writing like no one else would ever read it, unless they got there by serendipity.
on the other hand, coffee grew on me. it showed me this person i could be. and honestly, i quite liked how this happy person wrote. it was frivoulous, but it made you happy for the moment, kind of like the fix you get from instant coffee.
also, importantly, i found wordpress to be a much better platform than blogger.
so, i was in a bind. who do i go with? cannabis or coffee? wordpress or blogger?
and then the solution struck me -
so, i am moving again. maybe it will prove to be an elegant demonstration of what psychiatrists call ‘fusion of multiple personalities’, maybe it will be an utter failure – can a self-that-seeks-anonymity coexist with a self-that-approval? maybe the first one will die of stage fright, and the other one will be unable to live up to hastily-delivered promises of honesty.
we’ll see.
so, this is the last post on instantcoffee (i’ve used that line before, haven’t i?). i had thought of deleting it altogether so that the name could go back to the public domain. however, wordpress tells me that that doesn’t happen. so, shrinkingvessels, i am sorry you can’t have the name. however, i’ll delete the posts in a few days so that cannabis can be the sole repository. instantcoffee will continue to be, because wordpress warns me that if i delete it, it can never be reclaimed or recreated…. now that’s such a final and sad thought.
see you on ‘canabeesee.wordpress.com’
